Tuesday, August 21, 2012

2012

I can't believe 2012 is here,
And I feel a hint of chaos in the air.
I sense things are heating up and winding down,
I feel a bit of danger in this old town,
The sky has changed and the birds are gone,
The moon seems fake,
Surely I'm not the only one...?
What lies ahead only time will tell,
But me, I feel a bit nostalgic as of late,
Consumed by memories of when life was great,
When the town was less crowded and people were kind,
Before 9/11 and Adam's sacrifice.
I'd give anything to go back to a better place in time.
Because the here & now, I find so depressing,
For the love of power and money you can't take to Heaven.
I look around and see a make-believe world,
With far too many suffering and too many pointless rules.

How did we let God become erased from our daily lives?
No prayer in school, no worship in government,
Once wholesome television replaced with murder, deceit and adultery.

Our faith in our God-given medicines banned and replaced,
By a system of poisons and death, am I the only one who's disgraced?
And how can people truly not see that the state of your health
Is the direct result of the food that you eat??

I miss the world I once knew when the summers weren't quite so hot,
When there was a long stretch of nothing on a trip around the block,
When people were friendly and there were plenty of jobs,
When chivalry was alive and being American was something to be proud of.

And how are they going to declare Pluto no longer a planet??
Pluto may be distressed, lost, hurt or abandoned,
But you can't disown him and revoke all planetary status!
Who comes up with this stuff and why do folks buy it?
And if others are aware, why are you so quiet??

Maybe it is I who have fallen from grace,
As I avoid catching a glimpse of my own face,
Because accepting the sorrow I carry is my one biggest fear,
Seeing the marks made by my own rivers of tears,
Tears of frustration and unresolved grief,
Because I just couldn't save him and where that left me..
Alone.

Just going through motions day in and day out,
Feeling no feeling because I just don't know how,
Without a heart there's no feeling just taking up space,
Except when I'm dreaming, I can still see his face.
He's no happier with me than I am with myself,
As I surrender and cower to the pain I have felt.
No longer trying to fight it and reclaim what is mine,
Always wishing I were anywhere but this place in time.

Saturday, August 04, 2012

Today I Understand..

Today I understand...
why my grandma taught me the Ten Commandments,
why my parents had to know every single place I went,
that growing up is different from growing old,
and why children should be taught the significance of truth,
rather than to simply do as they are told.

Today I understand...
why my brother said "just wait, you'll see"
in reference to how the years would fly by
and the dramatic effect it would have on me.

Today I understand...
why they're called wonder years and glory days,
& why you should stop & smell a rose or two along the way,
& not dwell on yesterday's heartaches or tomorrow's woes,
Just take each day as it comes, make the best of it & then let it go.

Today I understand...
that life offers zero guarantees,
& what's good for others may not be good for me,
& you never know what day will be your last,
But it could smack you right upside the head
if you're caught up in the past.

Today I understand...
How lucky I am to have family
and friends who truly care,
my health, my freedom,
my peace of mind, fond memories,
intelligence and beautiful hair.

Today I understand...
A little more than I did yesterday,
& that I have a lot to learn,
& that life truly is a gift,
& honor is something earned.

I don't understand..
Why people kill, children die,
or why the average person is so unaware.
I don't understand why people trust doctors,
And take drugs from which millions die every year.

I don't understand..
Why fashion counts, sex sells,
and why professional athletes make more than
nurses, soldiers, firefighters & teachers.

I don't understand..
Why rapists go free,
Why cops consider themselves cool,
How an unpaid traffic ticket can get you thrown in jail,
With vicious murderers, gang-bangers and drug dealers.
The justice system is absurd.

I don't understand how people cannot see the truth,
About the ill-conceived greed that is poisoning their food,
Weakening their bodies and their minds,
So they will be more willing to give up their freedoms,
And believe the endless lies.

I don't understand..
Why people don't open up their eyes,
And use their brain more than they do,
Instead of believing everything they're told,
And frankly I don't know what to do.

I can't save the world.
For years I tried,
All it got me was in the hole,
Tired and patience tried.

If I could I'd take away all the world's pain,
And banish evil across the board,
I'd feed the animals, teach the children,
Comfort the hurt and house the poor.

But I've learned I can't do much afterall,
The world is much bigger than I thought,
And I can't imagine what people think about,
All my endless hopeless thoughts.

But for me to not care is to not be worthy of life,
And I don't understand how so many others
Can take all of this in stride.

My Story

If you find yourself with the end in sight
Wondering if you had it to do again
If you'd change it all and do things right
Don't set yourself up for the fall
Don't push yourself to take the jump
Don't look back and say good-bye
Never turn your back on love.

I've said hello
I've said goodbye
At least a half a million times.
I've plucked petals from a thousand roses
While I sat and pondered about God and Moses.

I've missed the bus
I've missed my flight
At least a half a dozen times.
I've woke up alone
Far away from home
Without a dime and without shelter.
I've been hurt bad but I'm all better.
I've been betrayed
And I've broken hearts
I've had my entire world all fall apart
I've made so, so many brand new starts.

But I've never sold out to the devil.
I've always kept things on the level
I'm no angel, but I'm not evil
And I don't go around hurting lonely people.
I don't live a glamorous life.
In fact it's way too hard most of the time
But I still wake up each day with a smile
Thankful I'm still so innocent, pretty and agile
And when I look at myself in the mirror
I feel grateful I'm still here.

I try hard to always do my part,
Treat others kindly and keep an open heart.
I don't have known enemies or secrets of deception
And I am both sincere and selective with my affection.
I've still got the smile of a child and a heart of gold.
Should I die tomorrow, let this--my story--be told.

Poison & Immune System

Resolution for Health: Reduce the Toxic Burden on Your Body

Have you ever walked down the grocery aisle of cleaning products and felt overwhelmed by the fumes? Personally, I get nauseous, fatigued and usually have a headache by the time I get home. I'm more sensitive to chemicals than most people. That's not to say that less sensitive people aren't affected or aren't at risk--just not noticably. We are truly poisoning ourselves everyday with the air we breathe, the substances our bodies physically come in contact with, and the food and drink we ingest. While it may be difficult to eliminate toxic chemicals from our lives altogether, there are many ways to reduce the risks.

Dish Detergent
Dishwashing detergent is toxic. So, why are we washing our dishes in it? There are alternatives. Seventh Generation brand detergents, for one, are non-toxic, seem to clean just as well as others and don't cost much more. Automatic dishwasher detergents are especially toxic with phosphates and other chemicals. Then there's rinse aid, which is pure poison and leaves a film on dishes. For rinse aid, I use a mixture of distilled white vinegar and distilled water, which works great for my dishes. Although they may not smell like lemons and Raid or a fresh mountain rain, my dishes are clean and not tainting my food and beverages with poison. It's a stress-free aspect of my daily life--one less thing I have to worry about compromising my health.

Toothpaste
Toothpaste containing fluoride is extremely dangerous for children. Too bad I didn't know this when I was little. I used to put toothpaste in between two Mardi Gras doubloons (like an Oreo cookie) and carry it around in my pocket like a lollipop. My immune system has never functioned at maximum power. Ingesting higher than normal amounts of fluoride daily for several months could have contributed to this.

Pesticides
Several years ago I managed an office where the pest control guy came once a month and sprayed odorless pesticide around me as I worked. I had severe eye problems at the time, which I then attributed to either my contact lenses or my cats. I would lose entire multiple days because my eyes itched, burned and hurt terribly. I can't even describe the profound detrimental effect the problem had on my life over the three year period I worked there. It was a living nightmare that cost me a lot of money. By records of my opthamologist visits, I later realized that the eye problems went away around the time I quit working there. Another incident occured years later when pesticide was sprayed in my home without my consent. As a result, I thought I was dying. The pain all over my body was so severe that I couldn't move. I just sat on my stairs praying and crying. I eventually seemed to become temporarily delusional. I was sick for days. Anyone who has been poisoned will understand what I am describing. The fact that some people aren't affected as noticeably or severely as someone as sensitive as me is not assurance or indication that no harm is being done to their bodies by such exposure. Cancer usually manifests silently over a period of years. So does multiple sclerosis, Alzheimer's and Parkinson's diseases, among others. In 2003, cancer took the young life of a dearly beloved friend of mine, just as it had taken the lives of his father, grandfather and great grandfather. Their family business was pest control. Pesticides are poison--not just to bugs, but also to humans and animals. Having your home sprayed for bugs is a ridiculous thing to do to your family--especially your children. There are alternatives if you have a bug problem. There are natural products that work--I have used them myself. They may cost a little more, but it's a matter of poisoning your family or not poisoning your family. You could also make them yourself for a lot less money. Even in apartments where I have been told that my neighbors had severe roach infestations, I have never had roaches and never sprayed for bugs. Childhood cancers have become common for reasons. Pesticide use, in my opinion, is one of the reasons.

Unnecessary Household Poisons
It seems like everyone is quick to try new household products, such as air fresheners, fabric refreshers and plug-in devices that emit fragrance into the home. Apparently people aren't concerned about the effects these products may have on their health.

Ten Ways to Lower Your Cancer Risk

Ten Ways to Lower Your Cancer Risk

1. Quit smoking and avoid secondhand smoke.

2. Eat more fresh fruits and vegetables--organic, if possible.

3. Exercise regularly. A 30-minute walk, swim, aerobics, hiking or rock climbing. Just do it!

4. Eat less red meat and more fish.

5. Take an all-natural multi-vitamin mineral antioxidant supplement. (not centrum or any of those at the grocery store.) Take a quality antioxidant supplement.

6. Cut back on sweets.

7. Learn to express your emotions of anger, sadness, and so forth. Keeping negative emotions bottled up inside you will poison you, and possibly lead to cancer.

8. Get sufficient rest.

9. Avoid toxic chemicals, such as household cleaners, pesticides, hair dye, paint fumes, etc.

10. Keep your bedroom window open (at least slightly) as often as possible.

What's Killing America

Why are Americans so Sick?

We pride ourselves as being an "elite" nation -- but what's elite about America today?

The American dollar is practically worthless. Jobs are scarce. And everybody's sick, dying or on prescription medications. And rarely do people take a single medication anymore. Pharmaceutical drugs have evolved--for one health condition, a person takes multiple medications, partly due to the fact that after a while each drug gives birth to a new set of symptoms that must be treated with another drug... That's how new diseases and disorders are born. And that's what keeps food on Big Pharma's table--new diseases and sick Americans. It also keeps lobbyists' private jets fueled and keeps the people at the top--at the top.

But that's not the starting point, the prescription drug treadmill is the middle of the road. It all began somewhere amidst the poisons clouding up the air we breathe--pesticides, herbicides, household cleaners, plastics, automobile exhaust, industrial fumes, lead paints, tobacco smoke and the absence of plant life and the vital oxygen it produces.

Our water supply is laced with deadly fluoride and chlorine, plus the sewage run-off mix of prescription drugs, antibiotics, pesticides and who knows what else. If you're still drinking water straight from the tap, it's a wonder you're alive to read this, seriously..

Here's one way to look at the anatomy and physiology of the human body: much like your car needs gasoline, oil and other materials to function, your body needs minerals to keep your bones strong and your heart beating, vitamins from which to synthesize hormones, enzymes and other catalysts which (among other things) create the energy you need to live your life. Without proper nutritional support, the body cannot carry out its functions. It's that simple! Does your car take you places if you don't put gas and oil in it? No, it doesn't. Your body, too, will cease to take you anywhere if you don't give it what it needs.

You may be wondering what do I know about any of this? What qualifies me to say these things? I don't have any suffix after my name. I'm not an M.D. or a biochemist. I'm someone who cares enough to learn and open-minded enough to compare what I see and feel to what I know and what I have learned. I am a researcher. I love science. I love all life. And I am immensely troubled at the needless suffering and untimely death amongst us that is becoming as common as life itself.

On August 13, 2003, Adam Bowerman--the love of my life--died after a 6-month battle against cancer. He was only 41, full of life, looked remarkably young for his age and left behind two darling little girls who thought he hung the moon. It is a horrible movie that will forever continue to play in my mind. He had a chance to make the changes in his life that would have helped him survive--to change his diet, habits and lifestyle--all small sacrifices he refused to make. In the end, he saw the err of his way right around the time he realized it was too late.

Human life is fragile. And your health is the most valuable asset you will ever own! Without it, life is no fun--it's misery and then it's gone. My parents know this all too well. My dad has had emphysema, a few heart attacks and strokes, prostate problems, no gallbladder, last I heard--he thinks he's going blind and his cognitive function is on a rapid decline. This is heartbreaking to me.

My mom, who had double bypass surgery a couple years ago, has diabetes, asthma, congestive heart failure, kidney disease, failing liver, bladder problems, skin disease, high blood pressure, poor memory, is wheelchair bound, and the latest of her maladies is gout (a terribly painful disease and a known side effect of blood pressure and diabetes medications.) Her case is infuriating to me because she is a perfect example of a person who's been strung out by the prescription drug rollercoaster. Many years ago (after her unnecessary hysterectomy) she was prescribed Premarin (estrogen), which today is widely known to raise blood sugar, damage the heart and increase cancer risk. After about 15 years of taking Premarin, she had her first heart attack, and then her second, and somewhere along the line, picked up at least a dozen other maladies.

I love my mom and dad dearly and am so grateful for them both. They took me in at a point when they were nearly finished raising their children. They will probably never know the full magnitude of my gratitude for them. When I was growing up, my mom was an excellent cook. Everything she made was the talk of the town. Fried chicken, the best biscuits and gravy, fried eggs & bacon (or ham or sausage or all of the above) and fried potatoes EVERY morning. We NEVER had a meal without meat! My mom always had a large can of Crisco on the counter, canisters of white flour, white sugar, corn meal, white rice, and at least a half dozen varieties of candies, cookies, and a freshly baked cake. My mom didn't believe in butter, she used margarine. People were led to believe that these things were good, or at least harmless.  She devoted herself to providing for her family (and anyone else who was hungry) the most delicious and filling meal you'd find anywhere. She really busted her rear taking care of everyone! God bless her for all she did. And shame on the authorities for not telling everyone they were setting themselves up for years of drugs, medical expenses and premature death!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Thanks a Million!

I've noticed that the main thing that seems to increase with age is not my wrinkles, it's my gratitude. When I look at the world today, I can't help but realize how lucky I have been. I feel sorry for some of the kids today. It seems to me as if parenting isn't at the top of many parents' lists of important things. (For many it seems it's not even on the first page.)

And the positive aspect of it is that it gives me greater appreciation for everything I had when I was growing up. I am so grateful for my loving family who took me in and made me feel right at home. I can never say that I haven't been loved, and isn't love all we need anyhow?

I grew up in a small Southern town in a spacious house on a hill. And as far as I am concerned, if anything has ever been "perfect" in my life, it was my childhood. I have grown to appreciate my family a great deal over the past few years. Dad worked day in and day out to put food on our table and clothes on our backs. And Mom truly deserves an award for the endless devotion she is made of -- we always had a 3-course meal for dinner, unwrinkled clothes, a clean house, Easter baskets, Christmas presents, and a reminder to "wear a coat" or "chew your food" or "have a good day at school"

I was lucky to have parents who cared enough to teach me things like:
honesty, loyalty, manners, and determination.

And I give all the credit to them for my academic achievements, my down-to-earth humor, self-confidence, and the courage to make it on my own.

Of course, just like any family, we had our share of tough times. But those were the times when we became stronger and better. And I wouldn't change a single thing -- except leaving so soon. Thanks Mom and Dad! You rock!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Think about this..

People keep getting smarter, but the world seems to keep getting dumber.
If you don't give your body the nutrition it needs, it cannot function properly.

 
Balance Begins With Nutrition.

 
If you don't give your body the nutrition and care it needs, it cannot function properly!!
If you never changed the oil in your car, would you expect it to last years and years?
If you didn't put gas in it, would you expect it to take you anywhere?

 
If you don't give your body the nutrition it was built for, what do you expect will happen?

It will start to malfunction. Your organs are starved for minerals. Your liver is worn out from breaking down all the synthetic garbage intake. Your glands are confused and out of sync. Your enzymes are in complete chaos. Your hormones are imbalanced. You're tired. You're overweight. You're depressed. Your hair is falling out. Your skin is shriveling up overnight. You can't remember the last time you had a good night's sleep, probably because your memory's failing because your brain is starved for nutrients and oxygen, but your heart can barely keep your kidneys satisfied, the brain's lucky to get a mere glance at anything beneficial -- because there's nothing left. You starved your body for so long, that eventually, it became unable to utilize what little nutrition you did manage to give it. You just "can't figure out" what's wrong with you? Better make a doctor's appointment. 

The doctor reads a chart. He knows your symptoms. He treats your symptoms with a couple of prescriptions. You go home feeling satisfied that your problems are over, right? 

Wrong! Your symptoms do seem to disappear, although you feel jittery, or your appetite changes, maybe your vision's getting a little blurry, or you can't stop pee-ing all over yourself. You go back to the doctor with new symptoms. New symptoms? Yeah, well those little pills you've been taking that were cooked up in a laboratory (and may as well be crack), they are derived from plants. Oh no, not plants! Plants are dangerous, right? No! But, the truth is that these drugs are made by extracting certain components from the plants, adding a few crockpot chemicals, and then a little glue to hold them together , and what you've got is: a very tiny leech that enters the body and begins to fall apart, molecules floating every which way. So, like any form of matter, it tries to replenish and repair itself. With what? Whatever it can find. 

It takes a little zinc here, and a little magnesium and calcium over here, tosses aside a bunch of dead-weight stuff like the pill binders and fillers. Your lucky kidneys get to have a hay-day with that crap for the next 15 years! This miserable little leech makes its way through your body and has the buffet of a lifetime doing it! Meanwhile, your body's becoming seriously unbalanced and mineral deficient. Billions of free radicals are building countries in there. Your body gives you every distress signal it knows how - indigestion, you take a pill; headache, you take another pill - allergies, you take another pill - skin rash, ah, what the heck! Your body is exhausted and frustrated! You just don't feel like doing much of anything anymore. Which is okay, because you can't do anything, you had a heart attack, and died on the way to the hospital. It's over.
 
Wouldn't it have been a lot easier to simply give your body the nutrition it needs? You could've lived a much more fulfilling life. You could've lived a lot longer. You neglected your body and now you're dead.

 
CAN WE PLEASE STOP THE INSANITY???

It's not rocket science, folks! It's just innate common sense.

 
Without proper nutrition, we are nothing.
Do the math, do some research, do something.
Take control of your life. Teach your children the importance of nutrition so their lives don't go down the same tubes yours did.

 
YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT!! (Seriously.)