2012

I can't believe 2012 is here,
And I feel a hint of chaos in the air.
I sense things are heating up and winding down,
I feel a bit of danger in this old town,
The sky has changed and the birds are gone,
The moon seems fake,
Surely I'm not the only one...?
What lies ahead only time will tell,
But me, I feel a bit nostalgic as of late,
Consumed by memories of when life was great,
When the town was less crowded and people were kind,
Before 9/11 and Adam's sacrifice.
I'd give anything to go back to a better place in time.
Because the here & now, I find so depressing,
For the love of power and money you can't take to Heaven.
I look around and see a make-believe world,
With far too many suffering and too many pointless rules.

How did we let God become erased from our daily lives?
No prayer in school, no worship in government,
Once wholesome television replaced with murder, deceit and adultery.

Our faith in our God-given medicines banned and replaced,
By a system of poisons and death, am I the only one who's disgraced?
And how can people truly not see that the state of your health
Is the direct result of the food that you eat??

I miss the world I once knew when the summers weren't quite so hot,
When there was a long stretch of nothing on a trip around the block,
When people were friendly and there were plenty of jobs,
When chivalry was alive and being American was something to be proud of.

And how are they going to declare Pluto no longer a planet??
Pluto may be distressed, lost, hurt or abandoned,
But you can't disown him and revoke all planetary status!
Who comes up with this stuff and why do folks buy it?
And if others are aware, why are you so quiet??

Maybe it is I who have fallen from grace,
As I avoid catching a glimpse of my own face,
Because accepting the sorrow I carry is my one biggest fear,
Seeing the marks made by my own rivers of tears,
Tears of frustration and unresolved grief,
Because I just couldn't save him and where that left me..
Alone.

Just going through motions day in and day out,
Feeling no feeling because I just don't know how,
Without a heart there's no feeling just taking up space,
Except when I'm dreaming, I can still see his face.
He's no happier with me than I am with myself,
As I surrender and cower to the pain I have felt.
No longer trying to fight it and reclaim what is mine,
Always wishing I were anywhere but this place in time.